I feel useless at work. Worse than useless. I know it takes time to ramp-up and learn your way around a new job, but it still bothers me. Especially when I forget to do something or screw up. It’s like, you’re only given this one little thing to do and you can’t even do that right. I know I need to just grow up and toughen up, but I seriously felt like crying for a moment at work today after I realized I forgot to do something and I could tell the other person probably thought I was useless.
At that moment I really needed someone to talk to, but couldn’t find or get ahold of anyone on the phone. It stings when you realized you’re in a new place on your own. I was thinking about that last night while out after I realized I spoken to anyone since leaving work.
Anyway, I’m about to head to Tallahassee to see off a friend whose moving to France for grad school. Seeing all my Tallahassee friends will cheer me up.
